This month has been…. interesting to say the least. Encompassing the final 2 weeks of the quarter, Finals week, and Spring Break, it was a surprisingly good month in terms of a benchmark for the future.
The first two weeks of the month were a relative success in terms of the amount of cooking I actually did. Going from an eating-out-every-meal-of-every-day lifestyle to not eating out as much was a shaky transition (Sadly I fell back into my old habits come finals week). Next quarter I plan to combine my healthier, cheaper lifestyle with daily exercise (waking up early solely for that purpose).
Last quarter was a mess. I most definitely was not myself, and didn’t really try to change much in my life to better my emotional condition. I plan on using next quarter as a learning tool for the primary means of achieving the goals I set out for myself in the Fall of 2010 (Achieving Self-Actualization). In conversations with my friends this week during Spring Break (especially Mally & Tony), I was able to gauge what it means to actually be relatively happy with one’s position in life. Aspirations for the future allow for oneself to not stay focused on the present for too long (and in my case focused on the past). In compliance with this, I really need to let go of my romantic aspirations being the primary foundation for how my life ends up shaping itself. Being completely dependent on another person to make me happy and guide me in the right direction is the wrong choice. Henceforth, next quarter shall be primarily devoted to the search for independence and self-actualization. Nobody else should be able to control my happiness except me. With these skills should come my inevitable graduation and re-entry back into Orange County in July.
My time in Garden Grove has allowed me to have a more complete understanding of the situation at hand. I was able to immerse myself, get myself psychologically prepared for what will be the final quarter of my college career. I’m going to make it the best one ever and nothing will stand in my way of achieving my goal. With my friends being there (top 10 of the month below), there’s actually nothing that can possibly stop me.
I have in fact been approaching life all wrong. Religion, rules, clubs, friends, and relationships aren’t going to make me happy in the long run. In the long run, happiness is in my own hands. I refuse to allow the mistakes I’ve made in the past plight my future, but instead carry on to what WILL BE A LONG AND SUCCESSFUL FUTURE. THE END.